Today is 8/20/99 i think..i have never been really good at remembering the date.Today i work from 5-9:30 i work at halmark..pretty exciting,im surrounded by people who are 50 and over,well some of them are but i dont mind that actully i kind of like it because most people my age around here are complete idoits whos goal in life is to please whomever they are trying to impress.I cant respect that,people like that give me the creeps,but they are the "popular" ones so im sure their satisfied with themselfs.I just cant wait to start school this year,ha,it starts the 7th of september.So from then until june i will spend my days surrounded by naive,ignorant people...wonderful.The thing that bothers me most is the constant "harassment" as i like to call it,by guys that i wouldent even bother looking at.Im sure a little abercrombie bitch would love their attention,but i happen to find it insulting.I have nothing in common with thoes type of people and i dont care to have the little boys of that group ask me out on dates and tell me that im "hot".I hate the way guys just like me for my looks.Sometimes i feel like it was a curse.Id really rather be ugly and have someone adore me for my personality.But i cant complain,because i have found this person.He doesnt care about my looks,he loves me for whats inside.And thats one thing i really love about him.I dont have to worry that hes just with me for the way i look.Its the most wonderful feeling.We have been together for about a year and a half.Despite the fact that I live in south carolina and he lives in maryland.I really hate the long distance thing but i can deal with it because I know in 2 years we can be together forever and I really beleive this will happen.Anyone that knows us both beleives it too.We are an unusual case i suppose,and i do realize how lucky i am.Im trying not to take it for granted.I know i have been completely stupid before,but im doing alot better.Im doing alot better with everything actully.Not accepting it,but doing better.One year ago when i was taken from baltimore maryland to the over 40 only golf and tennis resort also reconized as hilton head island,Sc.I was completely miserable.I had a evil plan that seemed completely genius(then) to find a job and work non-stop so i could disassoicate myself from everyone on this miserable island.Well i finally got my wish and I now work at halmark non-stop.This situation just highlights the saying"be careful what you wish for"Because when i finally did get the job,i had already met some really great people,that i really enjoy hanging out with.So i dont get to see them to much now,which is a big difference from a couple months ago when i'd be out with them every night.But its ok,i see them when i can and my best friend amanda lives right down the street so its good.I get to see everyone this sunday,there is a concert a fuel a punk band called slick shoes is playing,Im not really into punk but oh well.Im just really happy that i got my friend kati to go.She has been in hermit mode all summer,which i completely understand.She wanted a break from all the obnoxious preps she might run into if she decided to go out of her house.A little extreme,but it did her some good.Kati is a really intelligent person and it was a shame when she got suspended this year for being caught with weed.We still dont know how she was caught actully,the principal just came into our drama class one day and took her with him,needless to say.She didnt come back.I thought it was really strange how they knew everything about the whole deal,how i had sold it to her and how ler had sold it to me.Ler is a really great kid.I like him alot hes 18 a was just about to graduate but he got in-school for smoking and thats counted as an absense and had one too many so now he has to repeate the senior year.I am secretly glad because now i get to see him more.I dont think i would ever see him again if he wasent going back to school this year.I used to see him alot when i was with nevin.Nevin was a big mistake and I really regret the whole situation.The only thing good about it was i got free weed and got to spend some time with some really interesting people.Dont get me wrong nevin is one of the coolest people i have ever met,but going out with him was a big mistake,it was a even bigger mistake to have sex with him.It really hurt vincent and i am really sorry about that.I love vincent so much I would never want to hurt him.Well enough about all that,its in the past now.a little about myself for a the people that happened to stumble on this page and found my life so interesting that they have decided to read until now.I am 15 almost 16,I live in hilton head,sc which ive already said.Im 5'4 and have dark brown hair with a purplish tint thanks to feria,and green eyes.I have been told by numerous people that i look exactly like katie holmes.Lucky me.Well enough for today,I will write again when i feel like it.
-Kacie
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